OMG! 10% fly away just like that. I forgot there is a quiz today. Software engineering. EEKKK... Gotta strive better next time. First time in my life I heard that the tutor says this "now is 1230pm, you can sleep if you have completed." haha
I heard this from a friend of mine today: " Those who wants to love but don't dare to love is a slut" It's kind of true actually. Thus, I am wondering am I one? A slut? Perhaps. Perhaps not. But the truth is that I don't want to admit neither wish to admit.
I am quite surprised that I do have classmates who viewed my blog. I'm very touched actually. Thanks. Appreciated it.
Can anyone tell me how to pass my time more meaningfully? Everything seems to be unchanged with or without me around. Everyone seems to have a destination and aim. They are all busy unlike me.
There is this one person who seems to be giving a cold shoulder now. I think I might have done something wrong. Or maybe I'm just too sensitive. I would like to know what has happened. I don't wish this to continue. The feeling is really bad.
It's making me terrible as well. Don't know what to do to make everyone happy. There are also some people who are feeling emo due to some reasons like close friend leaving etc. I can't really change the fact of what has happened cause I'm a human.
I cannot really cheer them up cause I myself is not feeling any better than them. But I will be glad if they come and tell me their problems or worries. I will be there to be their listening ear always. If they trust me of course. Else, I hope that they can cheer up after some time.
Even at home, I have not spoke to my dad for more than 10 sentences a week. He's busy with his work. When I reached home, he is asleep. I'm at home, he out to work. Weekends? Parents and sis will be out together. Me? Working.
Even if I'm not working on that particular weekend, they seems to be busy with their stuffs. Though it has been like this always recently, I feel so lonely. Only my baby will be there with me. Sometimes, I don't even have time for him.
Who knows my loneliness beneath my heart? It cannot be explained in words. There are many more things that makes me feel so unworthy to be here sometimes. I just hope I could get myself occupied. Shopping? Alone is never fun. Friends? All are busy. Swimming? How long can I swim per day 3 Hours, 5 Hours?
I have no idea who is trustworthy who is not. People are so scary.. They can be nice to you in front, who knows what happens behind you? Why can humans be loving towards one another?
