Finally.. I have completed the 2 days Kayaking course! First day, was all right. I just feel so bored as others seems to have company. After all, probably I'm not in a good mood? Better to stay alone.
I feel manier now. I helped everyone to carry their kayak whereas other girls are like standing there thinking guys can do it. Although there was only 3 guys in my group. For me? I helped everyone and end up the instuctor has got to help me to carry my kayak.
When we are doing the resue practical, everyone was like so afraid of being the capsizee. As the water is deep, dirty and salty. So I volunteer myself. First to be capsized, and last to launch out. I felt good as I helped others. :D
Next, being the capsizee I'm supposed to wait for my team-mates to resue me. In the end I have got to help myself. Rather resue myself more than they resue me. The most irony thing is that, I have got to grab hold and "save" my own kayak. The kayak drifted away.
They are so afraid of being capsized that they did not grab my kayak and hold it tight. And there I am swam to "catch" my kayak, encouraging them and assuring them that they won't capsize. I understand their fear. So I did not blame them. They did a good job after all.
People kept saying I'm emo. Question is that do I really look emo? Why is everyone saying the same thing? Yes, I seems to have spoke lesser than before. And I put everyone be it close friend or just normal friends first rather than myself.
This is a big change in me. I became manier? I took care of people around me more than before. They don't want to do it, ok I do. That's great isn't it? No unhappiness.
I feel aching everywhere. I enjoyed so I don't mind. But, what make me worst is my weak immue system and sensitive skin. Getting itcy after being in dirty water. Getting sick maybe too tired? Head is spliting!!! Throat is buring!!
Oh please, if I have become so weak that I fall sick so easily, please God... Take me away! Suffering from these is never fun! I want to enjoy and stay strong to enjoy.
Oh cool, I'm so afraid of having gastric again! So I have learnt to be good. Will eat at least one meal a day. I have gave up dieting! No more diet for me. Anyway, even if I'm slim or fat it makes no different. No one wants means no one wants.. LOL kidding!
