Today is such a tiring day as usual. Monday is a long day, thursday is a early day. Feel like dozing off in th e lab now. Tonight still have to work at 6pm. Then Friday is a off day for me. One more day to go.

Well, I can't really know who are true who are faking. They seems to be good with you in front of you. But say something which are super unfair and demoralizing to you. Be it in front or at your back. But I still cannot accept it in anyway.

Perhaps, there is none in this world is worthy to trust. Boyfriends/Girlfriends may leave you, Friends might backstab you. Maybe parents can be trusted. But sometimes, they will demoralize you at times.

I think one should depend on oneself instead of trusting a second party. After so much have happened, I really feel so dejected about human's relationship. I can't understand why humans can hurt humans. Aren't they one of the same kind?

Well, that's human nature. Fight for status, money, this and that. WHAT'S SO NICE TO FIGHT ABOUT? Compare Compare, Win Lose... Is that everything about life and living on earth?

Everyone is so busy doing something for their java project except me. I can still have time blogging. I felt that I can't do a single thing. I also don't wish to do anything. So tired and pissed looking at all the codes.

There is this "somebody" I can't really stand her. She is like so noisy and rugged. Thinking that she dominate everyone. The way she walks is like everyone is looking at her thinking she is freaking pretty. Actually she is not.

She does things in her way and expects everyone to follow suit. Speak super loudly and somehow has this threathening attitude. Wear like a lady but act like a crazy. I wonder what has the world became.

At work, there is also this girl who only knows how to refill water for the customer and do things slow 12 bits! The moment I see her, I see red almost immediately! Busy times, can't find her! Is like what the hell!? What else can she do other then refilling water?

Ha! Feel like an old woman grumbling grumbling grumbling... Feeling so down. Plus all the projects giving me so much pressure! Being in a group of experts in coding makes me feel worst then ever!

YongHow asked me a very good question as in "Why would I want to join Navy?" Thinking about this question I found my reason. Being being smart in the uniform, what else can I do? Having this Diploma is equal to none.

I have no interest in doing IT and Business jobs. 8am-5pm everyday doing office work!? No sunshine, NO LIFE at all! I will be dead facing computer everyday just like what I am doing for these 3 years! Coding coding and still coding!!!!

If to say I'm feeling bad, I can't be compared to "him". He's worst then me. Feeling so hurt inside that no one can help. People around him can only console and that's all. "He" need lots of time. '

I can say "he" did a lot for "his her" or should I say "his ex-her". Imagine, "he" just remove the bone for "her". Ahyea... never mind.

Hmm... That's all folk

Yesterday went to Villa Bali with en. I realise how interesting it is to see the bartender shake shake here and shake shake there... Funny uh!? Just to entertain you. Actually I cannot think of any words to describe what they are doing.

This is my first time seeing them doing the drinks with my own eyes. Sounds like a mountain turtle but indeed I am. I have not really seen much of the world. I guess I will have to learn to experience more things from now.

I guess I cannot adapt to having night life outside. Feeling so tired on the way home at 11pm. I wonder what are those people in the same train as me stay awake at such late hours.

Regarding the Genting trip. It is being postponed. Too last min to book for the trip. Actually is quite true. Shall discuss about it again.

There is this particular matter that bothers me. Speaking to straightforward without thinking of how the person can feel? Being so sensitive towards a matter that actually don't exist? People do changed in a blink of an eye. They seems to be a stranger just overnight.

Some friends are meant to be good friends to you. But just overnight good friends became enemies then to strangers. Strangers became friends then to good friends. Friends comes and goes just like that.

What if someone who is so close to you and talk whatever under the sun, knows her inside out, changed to be someone whom you don't seems to understand and don't know what to talk anymore? Maybe is that time have drifted us or maybe some unfortunate things happen that make one seems so useless?

Wherever the problem lies, this friendship shall forever be cherished and I treasured it the most. We will never and cannot be separated. Nothing will be a burden for us. It is our test.

Sometimes, when we are so involved into a situation, you cannot see yourself or the other party is right or wrong. You will only see what you want to see. Think whatever that comes to your mind. Be it fair or unfair.

Bystanders are the only ones that can see accurately though they might not be able to understand the matter totally. This happen to many of us. Some might think they have seen a lot, experience a lot but if compared, theirs is nothing at all.

I don't know why I have been so negative recently. Some small minor things actually bothers and affected me so much. It does not involve me at all. I could just stand by the side and treat is as... A movie showing?

Sometimes, you can't afford to care as much as you want to. Due to time constrains, school work, part time etc etc. It does not mean you don care. But others might not understand. They think you are at fault for not caring blah blah blah..

I don't wish to explain neither have to explain about anything. Cause nothing will goes right it will only make the matter worst. So be it. I believe time will do the explanation in its right way, right timing.