HI LOVES~
It has been a while since our meet up/sharing. I would like to share this ridiculous dream I had.
This is the dream I had on Monday 10 Aug 2009:
I walked down the aisle in a well decorated and romantic place without wedding gown. On me was a purple esprit T-shirt and shorts. I was not smiling like how all other brides will. My heart was so heavy.
Then, my hand was then passed to my husband-to-be. Still I was not smiling brightly. Everything seems to be unclear and the next thing I know was I was called on stage. It was games time and I stood at the side of the stage looking at how my husband-to-be enjoyed himself. I remembered the game was made in a way that ladies and gentlemen had to overcome different obstacles. Still I am still with my heavy heart.
Everything seems unclear again. The next thing I knew was only 1 of my friend, Weili attended. She told me some were not free, some overslept thus unable to make it. I also asked her about her partner, and she said her partner was not invited. My heart began to sink deeper.
And I remember this is what I said to her: " Li, I don't know if I have made a right choice. Shall I run-away from here?" And I know Weili shook me vigorously. I can't remember what she said exactly but I knew was asking me to erase my thoughts.
*RING~!!!!!!!!*
I was awaken by the ringing of my house phone. Too bad no conclusion for this dream. =( When I woke up, I had this sudden enlightenment in me; "Oh no! I'm 20! Getting old day by day... People are getting married in their twenties! Isn't it time my turn in a few years down the road?"
I have no idea why I have this kinda fear of marriage in me. Is it due to I have not met my Mr.Right? Or cause I do not want to get married? To me, I believe that I do not want to get married.
Marriage is like being tied down by a certificate, and soon parents, in-laws, relatives, friends will begin to hurry you to get a child. Terrible! I hate KIDS! I rather have dogs than kids!
To conclude, marriage is the key to a nightmare. Dating is the key to problems and headaches. Single is the key to freedom and peace.
Of course, this applies to me and might not apply to you. =)
Loves and kisses,
Vone
