After such a long time I cleared up my room and feel more cosy to sleep and to stay in this neater and cleaner room of mine. While clearing, I found this box that stores a lot of past memories. From ex- best friends to boyfriends. Then I realise, we all lack of the courage to have a good talk with each other and misunderstandings then arose.
Firstly, is my first ex-boyfriend. I always thought that he don't understand me and our character is not suitable for each other. Thinking back, he is one of a nice guy who will give in to me. Though he will flare up at me at times, but most of the time I'm the unreasonable one. If we had a calm and peaceful talk, things wouldn't have gone that bad to the extend that we broke up. We are still Friends but not close friends.
Secondly, is a close friend in secondary 1 & 2. We are rather close, character is almost similar. Everything about her was good. But there is this one thing I can't accept. Is she don't admit she lost, in terms of results and whatever it is. So one day, I just ignored her but she never fails to find out the reason from people around us and failed. Thus we split in secondary 3 and then we went separate ways. If there is a talk between us, who knows whats the outcome?
Thirdly, my second ex-boyfriend. He is another nice guy. He gives in to me be it I'm unreasonable or he's at fault. He dislike this ex-best friend of mine. He always thought that it was her that made me so busy to have no time for him. She is the one who was always beside me together with him. He did initiate a talk with me, unfortunately, I ignored. Reason is I trust my best friend. At that time I wondered, why can't I have both boyfriend and best friend. In the end, I chose to give up one of them. And is my Boyfriend and we lost contact. If I did not ignored his intention to have a talk with me, what will things be like now?
Lastly, this ex-best friend whom I chose and can you imagine we are that close to give each other a nick? "Darling" Sounds mushy but we are just FRIENDS. I must admit she was really someone nice and closest to me. Many times, I argued and gave faces to my CCA buddies and my second ex-boyfriend over her. At that time, I don't think all these are worthless as she was my best and closest friend at that time. I thought we could remain that close forever, but I'm wrong. We went everywhere together, almost explored the whole of Singapore. Then slowly, our relationship strained. Everything changed in just a spilt of a second. She began to lie to me, said hurting stuffs to me, controlling me to the extend of expecting me to report to her in whatever I'm doing. I'm really sorry but I have to ignore her from then on. Expecting her to give me an explanation for her action before replying to her SMSes. Instead she went more overboard then ever. I guess she did not know I was expecting an explanation. Ever since, we lost contact and went our own ways and I did not get the reasons of she lying till now. It has been 2 years. If, I just told her straight and confront her at that very moment she began to change, what is the outcome 2 years ago to now? If she suddenly gives me an explanation now, will I listen? I will if it's nothing but the TRUTH. One more friend is better than one more enemy.
Luckily, I managed to accept En's idea of having a talk with Li, else I can't imagine what will we be like now. Ever since the talk, Li and I are closer to one another. Now to me, a talk is really a powerful solution only when both parties are willing to listen and accept their own faults and have the will to change for the person they care. This is the doing of a matured adult. Thinking of cutting off ties with one another is simply too childish and silly. I admit, I'm childish in the past, and I am willing to change. What about you?
Perhaps, you may encounter the same situation as me. Rather I should say, everyone does encounter these problems. It's time for you to buck up your courage and be a matured adult, take up your mobile now and initiate a good and fruitful talk with the other party. Be it just an apology, giving explanation, asking for explanation or just a simple sms, to show you simply care the one you have not been contacting for years. This is not a sense of weakness. Cause you are willing to take up the first step and this prove you are a winner.
I shall end with:
A Loser is the one who has no courage to admit his/her fault. A Loser will hide in a corner waiting for a Winner to give in. Winner or Loser? Your choice.
